S. Elle Cameron

All love is a tragedy...

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It's dawn

I hate going to sleep when it's daylight

But we always do

It's a sickness we have,

Me and you


Amongst other things 

We can't bear to speak

But the morning light is worst of all

But somehow it's where we always meet, 

Me and you


We live through the darkness

It's the source of our power

The moonlight supplies our solar energy

But this sickness is getting the best of me,

Me and you


We have much more to live for

Let's stop closing our eyes towards the sun

Because the darkness can't hold us forever

We're growing older by the second,

Me and you

Science? (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 23)

Everything great starts with a fall
Just like everything big starts with something small
We're all just pieces of atoms
Stardust combined
And out comes this person, destined for something big
It's inside of us all, we just have to dig

We're all alive because of a cell
We all have futures no one can tell
Something hidden on the inside
Unfathomable things
We're nothing but gathered elements
Struggling to make the best of our presence

Over/Under Whelmed (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 21)

Over or under
There's no in between
I'm overwhelmed 
With my passions and dreams
My mind won't stop racing
The time moves too fast
My body won't stop pacing
How long will it last?

I'm underwhelmed by life
There's not much to it
It bores me by the night
So I just think and sit
Of new ways to make it happen
Don't know where I'm going
I can hear my brain laughing
Not sure what I'm sowing

For Specs Alexander...(To The Moon & Back)(OctPoWriMo2015-Day 20)

You may be older and don't run around like you used to
But I still love you to the moon and back
You may be bad and tear up things that's new
But I love you to the moon and back
And nothing will ever change that

You may not be feeling well these days
And we're not sure what exactly is wrong
But I'm sure you'll be okay
Because you've always been strong
I'll love you to the moon and back

You may only be 13 pounds but you're so much bigger to me
I'll love you to the moon and back
I promise I won't ever leave

Even when your time is limited, that day will come
But none of that will change a thing
Because the moon isn't far enough
Neither is the sun

So I'm rooting for you my Poodle Love
I mean it, you're the best dog in the world
Because no one comes close
Not a boy or any girl

You're the only one who can make my heart skip a beat
And I'm trying to keep this poem short, nice and sweet
But I don't think no one understands
Or gets it just like that
No matter what happens, I'll love you to the moon and back

And far beyond...


Dancing With Tears (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 17)

1, 2, 3
1, 2, 3
I'm dancing with tears in my eyes
4, 5, 6
The water is giving me blurry sight

7, 8, 9
They fall onto my face
10, 11, 12
10, 11, 12
Partner, please give me some space

13, 14, 15
13, 14, 15
I don't think the count goes this high
16, 17, 18
16, 17, 18
I'm dancing with tears in my eyes

I'm twirling while I'm crying
I spin so fast they can't tell
My body moves so flawlessly
They don't know inside I'm in hell

So keep it going
1, 2, 3, 1
Let the movement keep flowing
2, 3, 4, 2
So they won't know I'm dancing with tears in my eyes

Shipwreck (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 16)

Do you see the shipwreck over there?
Do you see the shipwreck over there?
Everyone's staring
Everyone's staring
They won't help
But they won't cover their eyes either

Maybe someone should see the damage
Maybe someone should see the damage
But no one's moving
But no one's moving
Maybe because they can't provide the bandage
Maybe because they think it's hopeless

There's smiles on some faces
There's smiles on some faces
The rest of their expressions are blank
The rest of their expressions are blank
The crowd fills the empty spaces
Yet no one moves

Now the shipwreck is sinking
And not one person is blinking
It's going down
But it's not making a sound
And everyone pretends they didn't see
They all pretend the shipwreck isn't me

Today's prompt was a paradelle poem.

Yesterday or Tomorrow (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 14)

Stuck in the middle
Not sure where to go
Life can be fickle 
Not sure what to know

Because truth is always blurred
It's never black and white
My words are kind of slurred
I'm stuck in the middle tonight

Drunk in the middle of a bridge
That connects yesterday and tomorrow
I missed it by a smidge
But I don't want to go back to sorrow

So if I'm in between
Yesterday and tomorrow
Is today unseen? 
Some logic I could borrow

Because I'm not sure where I stand
Or what all of this means
It's like my feet are caught in quick sand
The distance is equal, or so it seems

Yesterday or tomorrow? 

Welcome To Adulthood (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 12)

Am I crazy for thinking there's more?
Because I feel like this can't be all
Could I find it if I knew what to look for?
Don't say there's nothing behind this wall

Everything contains something deeper
Fear would love to prove that theory wrong
Going the other route because it's cheaper
Hoping what I need won't pass me along

Impossible things happen all the time
"Just believe," they all say
Kinder things have happened to evil souls
Let's not talk about that today

My mind is a wandering battle
Never ending at any point
Over bearing and keeps me rattled
Promising my dreams and fears are joint

Quiet moments do me no good
Rationalization is my worst enemy
Sometimes I don't think as I should
Trying to find a permanent remedy

Understanding is the hardest
Volunteering my sanity
Wishing on stardust
Xanax helps my inhumanity 

Yelling my loudest won't do me any good
Zookeepers stand by to lock up this animal inside 

The prompt today was to create a poem with 26 lines using different letters of the alphabet. I decided to go in alphabetical order.

Untamed Heart (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 10)

Ink me good
Or bad if you choose
I have an untamed heart
That will never lose

Don't go by guidelines
I don't believe in rules
I'm an untamed heart
I see from a different view

Don't want what you want
Don't care what you say
My heart is untamed
It'll always be this way

You tell me to grow up
But rebellion isn't a phase
My heart's not tamed
I was born a renegade

This is who I am
It's in my blood
My heart can't be tamed
That's how it always was 

There's Fire In You... (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 9)

Sparks fly
I let them ignite
Firestorms were always my favorite
Water dries
And you can't see the wind
And sometimes the earth cracks beneath your feet
But fire burns
And it spreads throughout the night
Destroying anything that gets in it's way
It doesn't stop at any cost
I always admired that

Fire is everywhere
In your eyes
Your gut
Your heart
Birthed from nothing but just a tiny spark
Now it's a four alarm fire
And it can't be stopped
There's no running
No hiding

Just spread your arms and embrace it
To the millionth degree...

The prompt for today was the elements. 

Color Me Black (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 8)

Black is what I always was
So I decided to embrace it
Heartache, mystery and sophisticastion
They all can sum me up
Just a little bit
But I know what color I am, it's a perfect fit

I'm the color people stay away from
They can't read me
To them, I'm a loaded gun
But I'm not here to talk about weapons
Because the words I write are plenty
24 years and they still don't get me

They think this means I'm dark on the inside
Yet this may be true
But there's still a light that shines
Because black doesn't mean I'm bad
Just that I'm a mystery
I think that's what gets them mad

My shade is too dark to see through
And they're afraid of what they can't see
So they try to mold me
But I was never one for conformity
So color me bad or color me good
It doesn't matter, I'll still be misunderstood

The prompt was "Color Me Good" and to write about a color that sparks a memory or a feeling. I've always been black which is associated with mystery and sophistication. By the way, I do remember the 90's group Color Me Bad (as was referenced in the prompt). http://www.octpowrimo.com/

Some Things You Can't Tell (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 7)

They said to stay away
You'll be no good for each other
Neither of us listened that day
Now we wouldn't choose another 

They listed the reasons why
Aired out your dirty laundry
But I didn't bat an eye
That's when they came after me

But you kept still and stayed
And that made me smile
We stopped caring what they say
5 years...I think we lasted a while

Much longer than they thought
Turns out we fit well
They never found the heartache that they sought
I guess some things you just can't tell...

The prompt for today was the road less traveled. We had to think of a time we didn't listen to popular opinion and ended up thankful we didn't. 

Not Enough (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 5)

Screaming and fighting isn't enough to keep me away from you
Crying and hard feelings aren't strong enough to stop this feeling
Because it's always you I run to, no matter what you do
As much as I hate you, there's always a feeling of love I'm concealing

Heartbreak and discomfort doesn't stop our world from going round
Painful words and blows won't kill our moments
Because I hear so much even when you don't make a sound
When you're too angry to speak, you're never my opponent

Because this is what true love looks like
Even during the worst times
We fight

For us, for who we want to be, for who we are together...

The prompt was based off of a line from Taylor's Swift's song "You Are In Love". It's actually my favorite part of the song and I would always play it over and over which is why I found it funny to be the prompt for day 5. 

"You understand now why they lost their minds and fought the wars
And why I've spent my whole life trying to put it into words"-Taylor Swift

It Was All A Dream (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 4)

I was there and so were you
We had it all and no one had to approve
I owned my life and you owned yours
It was magical and we were our own cure

Everything was where it belonged
I was happy and you came along
Not a thing was out of place
We owned it all, our time and space

But things are rarely what they seem
It was time to wake up, it was all a dream
I long for a world where that feeling can be real
But that dream hit me hard, I need time to heal

There needs to be a world with simple joy and magic
There's something in my gut telling me I have to have it
Because if I don't it can be the death of me
Because if I don't, all I'll ever have is a dream

Waiting...(OctPoWriMo2015-Day 3)

I'm sitting here waiting
Just waiting for something to happen
I showed up, I fought my way here
Did the opportunity disappear?
Did I blink and miss it?
I thought this was it, the perfect fit

"Showing up is half the battle"
That's what they always say
Show up and get on the saddle
Ride it for what it's worth
But it ain't much here
It's not much there...

I thought waiting may not be enough
But they say waiting makes you tough
It gives you thicker skin
But I learned it's not about the outside but what's within
And even sometimes that ain't enough
Because we have no say over this kind of stuff

Where we'll end up
Who we are
We can try to change it but there's no guarantee
No matter what happens there's always a fee
So go ahead, we can dream and dream
But some dreams will always be incomplete


I Just Need You To Hit Me (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 2)

It was dark outside
Not a light in sight
I just wanted you to hit me with all your might
Do something, say something
Don't be a mannequin
It was either sink or swim

I egged you on
I instigated as the night faded
I just needed you to hit me, make me jaded
I'm laughing at you
I'm twisting your arm
Just hit me, do me some harm

You finally did it
I acted like it didn't hurt, wiped the blood with my shirt
But this is foreplay for me because I always like to flirt
Before I get into it
Before I enjoy it

I just need you to hit me...

The inspiration came from watching a scene from one of my favorite movies, Fight Club (it's a tie between that and The Dark Knight for the #1 slot). I watched it on mute and came up with this.

There's Something In The Clouds Tonight... (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 1)

The sky is dark
But the night is light
There's something in the clouds tonight
Can't tell what it is
Or what I want out of life
But there's something in the clouds tonight
That makes me think I can be more
It makes me dream 'til my mind is sore
But I can't see past my initial sight
Still, there's something in the clouds tonight
The wind is getting icy
And the air is colder, dear
Sometimes I wish my ambitions would disappear
For some reason, this evening I want them to stay
Maybe I can keep them into the next day
I hope it's not gone before the morning light
Because I like whatever it is in the clouds tonight

Lust You (A Poem From Alex's POV + New Scene From RED)

I've actually been excited to create a poem from Alex's point of view for a while now. Alex is a very interesting character and I think he brings a fullness to RED. He's the antagonist in so many ways but he isn't all bad at the same time. Anyway, Alex gets himself into a pretty nasty situation (I won't give it up) and that's basically what this poem is about. Hope you enjoy it. And if you missed the last poem you can view it here.

I'm one second away from tearing off your clothes
Even though I know much better than this
It's the way your eyes look, the way your hair flows
I want to add you to my list

Isn't it okay if you act older than your age?
I mean, who would know if you don't tell?
Let's give a performance in my room, my bed will be the stage
 I'll buy whatever it is you're willing to sell

And I know this is supposed to be wrong
But I bite my lip and stare anyway
And to think it all started with a simple song
I think today just may be the day

That you forget about him
And let me win
I can't wait to hear the noise you make when I go in
God, this feels too good to be a sin

But you're more to me than just a body and lips
Although, I will admit I love the feel of your hips
When I'm holding you while you tighten your grip
I swear to God you take me on the best trip

I might've gone insane
Because this isn't right
But it's all pleasure, no pain
So I won't even fight

Well, well, well, there's your first taste of Alex Kinsley! Hope you enjoyed what you read. Here's the scene from RED that inspired this little piece. Only a few more weeks until RED's Valentine's Day release!

Alex: Control

It was a stupid decision but I make it anyway. Lust took over and I did something that I thought I could never do. I keep telling myself we’re not even a full eight years apart but it doesn’t make me feel any better. She’s not even eighteen. I knew we’d go this far I just pictured it happening a year from now. She tried so hard to ignore me the entire time we were together and that only made me want her more.
It was the song. Hearing her voice sing lyrics that hit so close to home didn’t help. It’s not just lust, I actually like her but I won’t be able to show it to anyone. I’m not worried too much about her boyfriend because they’re still young. They’re bound to break up eventually, right?
We didn’t speak for the entire car ride. She didn’t even say that she’ll see me later. I sit in my studio alone and roll a joint. God knows I need one. I play her track again and close my eyes as I inhale. I picture everything that happened in full detail from beginning to end. I can’t wait to see her again.