New Light (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 31

At the end of a journey

Just to start a new

The things I've learned

Can be summed up in few

Patience, creativity, and perseverance 

Things I need to be a better me

Who knew it would come from writing?

Who knew a challenge would be the key?

The wheels started moving

They cranked and they turned

For 31 days 

I let my mind burn

But in the best way possible

Because I found a new light

Some great new ideas

That I'll work on at night

So until next year

I have to get back to work

Share some new inspiration

And enjoy all the perks 

Beta Waves (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 27

Closing my eyes is my favorite thing to do

It's not that I'm lazy but I get to dream about you

If only I could still hold you near

This pain in my heart would disappear

You're only present in my wildest dreams

We're alive in a world where nothing is what it seems

I never knew that sleep could be so satisfying

The peace, the freedom is almost like I'm dying

But it happens in the best way that could exist

Because I get to see the one that I miss

Every night I get to smile

I get the chance to talk to you for a while

In reality, you're not even here with me

But that doesn't matter in my dreams

That's why being asleep is better than being awake

Touching things only my beta waves can create

I don't care if I only love a fantasy

I don't care if it contributes to my abnormality 

Because I'm happy that you're right in front of me

Even if I'm the only one who can see

I'm okay with living in a lie

As long as we never have to say goodbye

I can't let you go ever again

I don't think this heart would ever mend

Magic (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 25

Spells, chants, and crystal balls

None of them worked, I tried them all

But you still haven't come back to me

I called on magic

I held my faith

But it's all so tragic

When hope has been erased 

The angels said be patient

The voices said be kind

But how can I remain

When you still aren't mine

So I went to the psychic 

But her answer, I didn't like it

She said to weigh my options

Then mixed me up a strange concoction 

She added indifference with a bit of cynicism 

She told me to take a sip and I'll be released from this prison

And here I am completely over you

Now I believe in magic

There's nothing I can't do

"Society" (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 20

Waiting to hear the words that I want

Is almost like slowly sticking glass in your eyes

With every twitch and scream

I wait for the pain to subside 

But if you speak what I can't bear to hear

I wouldn't know where to take it from there

Because I waited for this too long

I don't know how much longer I can be strong

All good things come to those who wait

But I waited too long for you to determine my fate

I'm just a piece in your game board

What can I really do?

I want to speak out in fury

But I know that won't get the best of you

Because you control this cruel world

And I'm only just a girl

I have a dream and a pen

And I intend to use it

I have a voice and a sound

But I'm not sure if I'm fit

Because there are all these rules I'm supposed to follow

But in truth, I feel like I'm being swallowed

Being digested in a world of lies

Stuck in a place where everyone wears buttons for eyes

If I'm like me I can't make it

I wasn't made with the right ingredients

My formula didn't contain the right contents

I look how I look

I am what I am

But I'm doing the best that I can

All of this thinking gives me anxiety

Living in a place we call a "society"

My Weapon (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 9

It gets hard that's why I do this

Put the pen to the paper

Because life doesn't turn out the way we want it to

So what else is there to do?

My life wouldn't be here

And my wrists wouldn't be clean

So I use the pen as a blade

And recreate the disaster that's been made

Someone asked me why I continue

When I'm not making a difference

Because I need it to learn

Or else I would set fire to myself and watch through a mirror while I burn

I have to do this

Because life doesn't make sense

And there's too much pain

And my emotions have never been tame

I'm all over the place

And I'm lost and confused

And there's nothing else that I could do

I have demons just like the rest of you

So I do this...

 

 

 

 

Blame It On The Moon (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 8

Tides are rising 

And so are emotions

This house ain't what it used to be

Feelings we never knew

Things we never felt

It's not just about you and me

Can I borrow your light?

Like the moon does from the sun?

Blind me for an eternity

I don't want to see the hurt

And I don't want to feel the pain

Buried in this mess, covered with debris

Maybe the full moon is just driving us crazy

Or maybe it's really just over

Let's drown together in the tides of this sea

But we just keep it going

Because we get nostalgic for the pain

We start to pick the forbidden fruits from the same tree

We keep wishing on stars

And hoping for a change in constellations

But what good does that do?

Now the storm is getting bad

And we can blame it on the moon

And pretend it's not just about me and you

What Isn't Said (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 7

Sometimes silence speaks louder than words

And sometimes it's easier to hear you when you say nothing at all

Words lie

Silence is the truth

And sometimes I understand you better on mute

Cold stares and unsure thoughts

It's all revealed when not a word is spoken

Working tongues are evil

Hearing nothing is hard

But I'd rather be set free than imprisoned and barred

Silence is golden

That's never been more true

The sound of lips coming apart can tear

Closed mouths can open hearts

Don't worry if you see me coming apart

Because it's better to be released by the truth

Than to go on believing in a lie

Tongues with all their sounds are overrated

So I'll bathe in your silence

And remember that moments like these are timeless

 

Waking Up Alive (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 3

I was hoping to wake up alive

Because all I did was indulge in you

I inject you into my veins like sugar in a needle

But all I can do is lie here

On my back

Staring at the ceiling with cracks in it

They said you would be sweet

They said you'd be kind

This was supposed to be easy

But it seems it was easier years ago

When I was younger

And this was new

The older it gets, the more I need

You're my favorite piece of candy

After taste and all...

Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up alive...

2 (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 2

There started out as two

And then one was created

That's the way we should be

Always two, never one, never alone

If threes a crowd, then two is complete

Maybe we'll meet on a one way street

There are many reasons why you're beautiful

But I'll give you two...

Your spirit

Your mind

That's all I'll ever need

Because that's all you'll ever be

It started as one

And now there's two

Maybe now that we're one

We can add another...three

Break Free (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 1

They never said

That adulthood would be this hard

Chains, barriers, brick walls...

It seemed fun when I was young

As a kid, I anxiously waited 

For the day

The hour

The minute

Then it came...

I grew my wings

And like a butterfly I had to fly away

No warning

No preperation for this transformation

It just happened

So here I am

Learning to break free

Break free?

Is this really freedom?

Because if it is

I may want to give it back...