S. Elle Cameron

All love is a tragedy...

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Battered and Shattered (A Poem From Peyton's POV + New Scene From RED)

It's another week which means it's time for another poem from a character's point of view. This time I'm choosing to write a poem from the point of view of the main character in RED. This is a poem by Peyton (Taylor and Peyton's daughter) after she has an altercation with one of her beaus. It's called Battered and Shattered. If you missed the poem from last week from Mason's POV, you can check it out here.

Sitting on the hard, cold ground alone
Scared, battered and shattered
I don't know who I am
I have no one to call
And the night is black
I'm just scared, battered and shattered

They're asking me questions
That I don't have the answers to
Alone, battered and shattered
My tears do the talking for me
Words won't come out my throat
I'm alone, battered and shattered

I've made my mistakes
But do I deserve this?
 Confused, battered and shattered
My blood runs red
And my mind is running wild
I'm confused, battered and shattered 

"Tell me your name"
"Do you have any family?"
Just leave me battered and shattered
I've come this far on my own
No one to guide me
He left me battered and shattered

Here's the scene from RED, Battered and Shattered was inspired by. Hope you enjoy it and remember RED will be released this Valentine's Day!

I don’t recognize myself. It’s more than that bad. It’s horrific. I become speechless and let my tears do the talking for me. I want to let something out. I want words to come out of my mouth. Suddenly, I hear screaming, a female’s voice that echoes through the night. It takes me a while to figure out that it’s my own. I can’t believe he did this to me.
The police and ambulance arrive as Robyn tries her best to console me. This can’t be happening. This can’t be real. I must be dreaming. An officer and a paramedic run up to me and bombard me with questions that I can’t answer right then. The paramedic walks me over to the ambulance and sits me in the back of the truck. He shines a light on my face and gently touches it.
“The most we can do is treat these wounds. You have a contusion on the upper left corner of your face but you’ll heal. Let’s get you to the hospital. You’ll need X-rays and the police can take your report there. Do you have anyone we can call?”
I nod my head yes and he calls the police officer over to the truck. They all look so sympathetic. I wonder if they all have daughters and are imagining what if this happened to them. I’m afraid to witness what Mason would do.
“I’m going to need a phone number, your mom or dad?” the officer says trying not to look too concerned.
“I don’t have a mom or a dad, just cousins.” I speak lowly in a monotone voice.
“I’m going to need someone’s number,” he replies.
“I tried to call Adalyn. She’s my cousin’s wife but she didn’t pick up.”
“What about your cousin?” he asks now seeming concerned.
“He’s in California on business.”
“Well, I’ll tell you what. Give me both of their numbers and I’ll try my best to contact them.”
I give the officer all of my information and he says he’ll follow me to the hospital to get the report after I’ve been fully examined. I lie back on the stretcher as the ambulance drives away from the dark and lonely street that has drops of my soul scattered on it.
I try to close my eyes but every time I do I see the image of Marcus. I’m not a crier but lately my emotions seem to be taking control of me. The ride is silent and I’ve never felt so alone in my life. How do I fix this? How do I walk into school? What will Mason and Adalyn think? God, I don’t want all of these answers at one time because that means there will be problems to go along with it.

Lonely, Stupid Girl

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
He'll never love you the way you love him
He'll never get that gleam in his eye
And he'll never be excited to see you the way you want

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
You're too dumb to notice
Too lonely to care
But he'll never understand what you feel

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
He'll always tell you, you think too much
Because his mind doesn't hold the capacity yours does
It just isn't the same for him

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
Walk away and love someone new
Someone who will love you the way you give love
Someone who will understand that light that turns on every time you see them

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
Life is unfair and so is love
He's too blinded by his actions to understand how you feel
You have love too big for him to grasp

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
Take this letter as a word of advice
You deserve better
You have a heart too big for him to feel

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
He'll beg you to stay but please walk away
You don't deserve to feel trapped
There's someone out there wanting to set you free

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
You shouldn't feel embarrassed for your love
If only more people loved the way you do...
If only he did...

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
It's okay to cry at midnight on the couch alone
It's happened to the best of us
Your love is just too much for some but they don't deserve it

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
Wipe your face clean and breathe in deep
He'll ask you what's wrong but he'll never understand
Because boys like him don't see what they have
They don't get they have what they don't deserve

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
You're better than him
He knows it but he plays on your weaknesses
Walk away...please

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
Stop showing you care so much
Take your heart from your sleeve and put it in your pocket
Don't ever let him see it or have it

Dear Lonely, Stupid Girl
Always love the way you do
Because someone will notice
And want to love you the same
And he'll be watching that same flat screen TV all alone...with no one to come to after